The Relaxer

Posted by Moose on November 24th, 2009. Filed under: My brain needs a drink.

To be honest, I’m not much of a doer. I’m more of a…relaxer. A dangerous tendency when you set your own schedule. I’ve come to the conclusion that the only option for me, aside from Blank-Eyed Cube Drone, is to find something I’m so excited about that I pop out of bed in the morning like a Labrador puppy catching the scent of ribeye in a soaring descent from kitchen counter to kitchen floor. But as a Relaxer Who Relaxes, Especially When She’s Not Really Expected Anywhere Until Thursday, I need to push myself. In some horrifically public way because that’s the only thing that works.

I’ve wanted to do something web-related that wasn’t this here blog for years now. Literally years. I’ve had about 16 different ideas and never implemented any of them. But I’ve had a few thoughts recently, s0 I’ve been pondering options for the last month or so. And guess how far that pondering has gotten me? That’s right. THE PONDERING HAS LEFT ME FOUR DEGREES SOUTH OF NOWHERE.

I recognize and admire the inherent beauty in a project that’s lovingly cultivated before being released into the wild, but I also know myself. And the self I know can make idle preparations while getting essentially nothing done quite happily for decades. Possibly centuries, depending on how good medical technology gets. Therefore, the forcing of my own hand. I’m going to put it up tonight, in whatever form it’s in when I fall face-first into bed. Hopefully momentum will carry my haphazard experiment forward after that. But as I write this, the name is a mystery, the design is way ghetto, the writing is wobbly, and something’s wrong with the way the url works. BUT NO MATTER. UP IT SHALL GO.

And I’m back. Five hours later. With…

The Love Project

For years, the very word scared the blithering hell out of me. Every time it escaped my mouth, the experience was subject to massive over-analysis and probing that would’ve felt right at home in an alien laboratory. I even felt guilty. Like maybe I’d sullied the grand tradition of love by speaking it out loud. (What?) The complexities of my relationship with the word and the concept led me to want to explore love more deeply, in all its forms: romantic, parental, a girl’s love for her dog, a boy’s love for his red shoes. You can – and maybe even should – love just about anything.

Please feel free to pretend there’s more content and that the web design was done by someone other than Standard Template Number 8. I hope you like it.

6 Responses to The Relaxer

  1. sizzle

    Your Relaxer and my Over-Achiever should hang out. I have no idea how to relax. Maybe you could rub off on me?

    Did that sound dirty? I didn’t mean it to. :-)

  2. Peter Varvel

    I think it’s a great start! I am a boy (in his forties), and yes, I love my red shoes because they are authentic Steve Maddens that I purchased as brand new for only ten American dollars, because they were on clearance in the Women’s section, at Ross.
    And no one knows that they were not bought from the Men’s shoe section, unless I tell them . . . which I always do.

  3. heidikins

    Squee!! So exciting!!

    (Also @ Peter Varvel, um I think I love you. That’s all.)

    xox

  4. Angel

    Your whole point about throwing something up to force your hand is EXACTLY why my blog even exists. I’m still planning things in the background, as I’m sure you are, but it’s more real if something is out there.

    Nice to know we can be the boot in our own asses isn’t it?

  5. Anne in SC

    I am right there with you….a huge Relaxer! I like that term.
    And I love the new Love project…I’ve commented over there too.

  6. Kristabella

    Wow! Look at you!

    I am a relaxer. Too many times being unemployed will do that to me. So much so, I can’t even work from home because I think it means it’s time to relax and watch SoapNet.

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